In the Beginning...

This is my first blog for my new website (www.celiameiubin.com -- which is not technically up and running just yet, but I want to have this blog already posted when we finally enter the ether-world) so I suppose I should say welcome, and thanks for taking the time to have a look around at a little piece of me. I'm writing this at the end of a loooooooong but inspiring couple of days and though I'm tired and ready to crawl under my duvet, I'm pleasantly warm inside, filled with gratitude and peace. It has certainly been an incredibly challenging 4 months since my move from London to Manhattan. I won't lie -- at times it has been very lonely and overwhelming, and I have shed many a tear. To move your life from one place to another is hard enough...to move your life across and ocean completely by yourself...WELL!! Thank goodness I am filled with an unbending desire to realise my dreams, or I never would have taken that leap. But it was a leap, a leap of faith, and my feet are ever so slowly coming back towards the ground to safety. I have a feeling that they won't land for awhile yet, but I'm happy to be free falling. What a ride! Here I am in NYC, an actual struggling actress, going from dance calls to singing calls, from the Upper West Side to the Lower East Side, eating sushi, hot pastrami sandwiches, pho, and everything else in between. Pretty fantastic! So, over the last couple of days, I have auditioned for a Broadway show and gotten really positive feedback from the casting director (hallelujah!), gotten a callback for the leading role in a show that I went to an open dance call for (more on that, should it go further for me), attended Alan Cumming's debut album release (what an INSPIRATION of a man), and had a rehearsal for a lovely pas de deux I am dancing in (gorgeous MGM-style). I'm exhausted, but smiling and happy. It's a time of new beginnings, and I'm so looking forward to seeing where these beginnings will eventually lead me. But, for tonight, I am going to put my dreams to rest and snuggle up with Alan Cumming's CD. It is certainly lovely to be right here, right now.

copyright (c) 2010-2011 Celia Mei Rubin

Simple Are The Ways We Say Goodbye

I have just booked my plane ticket to NYC. And so a chapter closes. And so a new dream begins.

I am excited, terrified, 100% sure of who I am and what I am meant to do. London has been good to me the past 10 years. I will miss my family and our Sunday get togethers. I will miss having my friends on the other end of the phone at any time. I will miss the friendly kebab shop owner down the street and eating the greasy takeaway when I'm feeling naughty. I will miss jogging in Hyde Park and watching the leaves turn brown. I will miss jogging in Hyde Park and watching the cherry blossoms bloom. I will miss the comfort of going to sleep at night next door to my sister. I will miss noodle dates. I will miss going to the cinema 5 minutes away from my flat. I will miss my flat. I will really really really miss my flat. I will miss sharing a day on High Street Kensington with my sister. I will miss the almost daily phonecalls from my parents. I will miss my huge Dopey Dwarf doll. I will miss my huge Mickey Mouse statue. I will miss walking past the Donmar Warehouse. I will miss walking along Embankment. I will miss Borough Market. I will miss Cafe Nero's Milano hot chocolate. I will miss M&S. I will miss H&M. I will miss Waitrose. I will miss spending an entire day cooking a Waitrose recipie for my family. I will really really really miss my family. I will miss sunbathing on my couch on a really sunny day. I will miss working at the bridal shop in Richmond. I will miss Richmond. I will miss the hour and a half walk from my flat to Piccadilly Circus. I will miss walking past Les Miserables and smiling because my best friend is in it. I will miss saying "I'll meet you at Charing Cross." I will miss meeting outside the tube station at Covent Garden. I will miss having a funny accent. I will miss driving to Italy via France and Switzerland. I will miss cocktails at The Hospital bar. I will miss being able to get discount tickets for almost any musical because I have friends in them. I will miss an English fry up. I will miss Guiness and black. I will miss Allsaints. I will miss being the only Jew. I will miss being around people that know me inside out. I will miss being around people that put up with me even though they know me inside out. I will miss you.

Friends forever. Sisters forever. Families forever. I am always here for you. Y'all better get SKYPE!!!! I'm off to do everything I need to do to become everything I know I can be...

Goodbye, good luck, and all good things.

"I am a part of all that I have met." -- Lord Alfred Tennyson

"Each forward step we take, we leave some Phantom of ourselves behind." -- John Lancaster Spalding

"No snowflake ever falls in the wrong place." -- Zen saying

"To know the height of a mountain, one must climb it." -- Julius Charles Hare

"A stumble may prevent a fall." -- English proverb

"My whole life is waiting for the questions to which I have prepared answers." Tom Stoppard

copyright (c) 2010-2011 Celia Mei Rubin